New Year

Happy belated New Year. I had a wonderful and action packed holiday. It's amazing, the high one gets, being swathed in family and close friends. I considered doing another retrospective, but decided not to. 2006 presented many highs, but just as many lows. I drifted in a pretty dark place; kicking, screaming, fumbling my way towards enlightenment. I must say, I am so glad to have my relative contentment back. I fought some fierce demons, and for a spell, they kicked my ass something fierce. But during that tousle, I learned so many wonderful, new, and exciting things about myself. The primary lesson I learned was resilience. I know that it's okay to be beautifully broken, to be vulnerable, and that I don't have to be tough or perfect all the time. Perfection is a myth. Perfection inspires delusions of grandeur. There's no beauty in perfection. It's a wonderful thought, but it's also an exasperating endeavor. I've been chipping away at this blog since 2004. This past year, I struggled with leaving, because I was so stressed and overcome with shape-shifting emotions, and I wasn't sure whether I wanted to share anymoe. I took a hiatus or two... and I came back. I'm glad I did. I'm not one for New Year's resolutions, so I didn't resolve to do anything. I don't think I should have to wait once a year to improve upon myself, that is something I aspire towards everyday of my life... so I'm keeping on. I still wrestle with life's everyday struggles, trials, and tribulations... but I've been sustaining and I do it with with clarity and a newfound strength. I read my horoscope today, in a local publication and it said the following:
From a metaphorical perspective, Leo, the 2006 chapter of your life story could have been titled "Asleep in the Garden." Beautiful fertility and fertile beauty have surrounded you, but you've been more aware of them in your dreams and subconscious mind than in your conscious waking life. I expect that to change in 2007. That's why I'm envisioning a new chapter that'll be called "Awake in the Garden."

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pricolatino said...

Happy New Year 2007!!!